JPF : Durham

You should have guessed from my amateur touch That I had it in me to misjudge everything this much I followed you down paths I feared to tread And now you look surprised at faces you never knew you led If you ever wonder where I've gone I'm probably confessing to the storm And if you close your eyes and listen carefully You can hear the rain falling on the sea We could steal the keys to the church And worship while reality slowly tears itself undone For you're the queen of all you inspire And your kingdom twists with each turn of your face towards the sun I've got nothing left to rearrange And the things you never see will never change The things that never change cannot change me Still the rain beats down upon the sea I've watched men lose their arms in the door I crawled along your bookshelf and I don't know you anymore The spires seem to point the way back home And I follow them completely ??? Vile grows the smile that feeds on sorrow Fat grows the day that feeds on tomorrow Heavy hangs the tear that's not set free On and on the rain falls on the sea

I'm longing to be wrong To go running to her room Where she'll catch tears in a bottle And dream of Neptune While I stand by Blinded by the colour of fire She's working on the floor Wax dripping from her hand The last time I spoke to her She said she'd understand But now just laughs And lines obliterate her face Tending to linearity When she sees me I'm sitting in the glare Of the shadow that's cast By the gramophone needle That points to the last time I stood in the sun And looked at the glass in her window

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G(vii)

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D

G(vii)

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D

G

Asus4

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D

G

Asus4

A

It shouldn't take so long for me to fall asleep

D

G(vii)

D

G(vii)

I must have too much on my mind

D

G

Asus4

A

Too many secrets that I have got to keep

D

G(vii)

A

Too many paths I have to find

G

A

And I always set my sights upon

D

G

The things I cannot touch

D

G

Asus4

The things that I believe are true

D

G(vii)

Asus4

D

G(vii)

It's such a terrible, terrible thing to do I live my life on paper so that I can screw it up I find I do it all the time I built myself a hiding place and then I blew it up And afterwards claimed that I was fine But you would never hurt me At least I know that now But I just never liked the taste Of that terrible, terrible thing to waste

D

G(vii)

D

I'll sit here until dawn

D

G(vii)

Bm

Before an obelisk and a unicorn

G

A

Asus4

A

Which danced in the light reflected from your skin

D

G(vii)

Asus4

D

G(vii)

What a terrible, terrible game for me to win There are some things that I will not tell anyone at all But I wince at my transparency I look at all the judges sitting on the wall And I wish that I could see what they can see While I sit with you and look at you And sing things to you That never made much sense until today What a terrible, terrible thing to say It's such a terrible, terrible price I've got to pay

If I could step outside myself for just one night And look at all the darkness enveloping me I'd gaze wide-eyed at people disappearing out of sight Light restful waves on the ever-changing sea If I could step outside myself for just one day And live as though I wouldn't die for you I'd watch your elegant image sliding silently away And know that there was nothing I could do If I could step outside myself for just one second It would be more than long enough for me to know That although I sowed the seed and happiness beckoned There was only one place left for me to go And if I could step outside myself for just that small amount of time That I've gloriously spent by your side Then it really wouldn't matter that I never saw your doorway shine And it really wouldn't matter that I tried

C

/b

F

C

I once knew an engineering girl

Csus4

G

C

From way down the corridor

C

/b

F

C

Such a thing of honest beauty

C

/b

F

I never did see before

C

/b

F

C

One day the bridges she dreams of

C

C7

F

Ab

Will stretch from shore to shore

C

/b

F

C

I've only known her for about a year

Csus4

G

C

But I hope to make it two or three more There's a part of my heart where it's autumn And a part that thinks it knows best A part where the sun shines fresh in the east And a part where it sinks low in the west A bee collects its nectar And flies home to its nest I want to go wherever she goes And that will be my quest She sees this world through different eyes And she paints a better place I know this world we're sharing Was a dream I chose to chase All I'm trying to tell her And all I'm trying to face Is that all I am and wish to be Will vanish without trace

I'm no good at life I wander round in circles wondering what I'm going to find Fate cuts like a knife Through oceanic thought to the inlet of my mind And then there's you There's a happiness I've only glimpsed in fear in the eyes of one who knows I know much more than this But I'll write it on the wall where I know nobody goes And then there's you I cowered in the gaze I tried to buy And I want to have an original thought I want to know more than I've been taught I wish the ball was back in your court So you can throw it back to me You can scale a mountain-top And never tell a soul about all the things you saw Those things will never stop The irony of occurrence and the symmetry of law And then there's you I ride on a moonbeam Day-dreaming of the clouds that obscure every star Things are just what they seem But you're wrong if you believe that I know just the way things are And then there's you I cowered in the gaze I tried to buy And I want to have an original thought I want to know more than I've been taught I wish the ball was back in your court So you can throw it back to me The ship has disappeared Out of sight and out of mind, and I am out of breath I'll kiss you when the mist has cleared When the blinding light of youth shines on the cool clear air of death And then there's you I could write a book for you But you already know the ending, and the end is not in sight I could come and look for you But you don't want to be found in the middle of the night And then there's you I cowered in the gaze I tried to buy And I want to have an original thought I want to know more than I've been taught I wish the ball was back in my court So I can throw it back to you I'd give it all up for you I'd empty my mind for you

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G

Gm

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C

C7

| Stop running around Just sit down next to me Put your ear to ground Can you hear the sound of the sea?

D

D7

Am

Am7

G

F

The air is hot and time remorselessly flies

G

Em

C

G

And you hold so much honour in your healing hands

G

Am

D

And you see so much with your melancholy eyes Won't you pick up a pen and start writing again Why don't you put me to shame? I'm gonna count to ten And see if then everything still is the same But nothing changes no matter how many stars rise And you hide all your pain behind a doubtful smile And you see so much with your melancholy eyes Let's climb up a hill To see the sun fall ill on the other side I'm gonna wait until you've had your fill And then I'll feel satisfied Oh it soon gets cool when the sun so silently dies And you talk so much sense with a curl of your lips And you see so much with your melancholy eyes

C

G

The morning was cold and bright

Am

Em

F

There was no wind to move your hair I walked across water with her Our breath met in the air The silent child In the arms of pure simplicity Sees nothing but the sun And sees right through me The sky seemed far away today I watched my conscience freeze Oh, Lord, I know I seek my inspiration on the breeze I play the martyr and I play the fool I play devil's cards when the sky turns grey I'm only ashamed of my shame Not of what I say It's easy to sit It's easy to pretend not to care While I scan the horizon in the hope I'll see you there I'll carry you through space If you carry me through time Oh, Lord, I know I seek my inspiration on the vine

C

Eb

I sit amongst the broken glass

Dm

C

/b

Gm

Studying the wrong side of the sky

F

The morning knows nothing

C

Of how quick the day goes by A little bit of love Is still a hell of a lot But nobody's as close to you As those who claim they're not Don't let it define me! You don't know me well enough To shut me out of here Your shadow's behind me But I know that soon the sun will set And then you'll disappear You and I we're just the same Right down to the blood that flows behind our eyes You're the only one I'd change for If change meant sacrifice

Sometimes there's nothing as full as an empty page And to hang my thoughts On my own blunt words Seems an insult to a finer age But of course silence will be absolute If you only cry when it rains And hands clasp together In a necklace of guilt And dreams lock together like chains Tying me to some funny kind of weekend When, through all the pain you replace All that remains of eternity Are fragments of disgrace So as the sun dissolves in a petrol can Beneath the forty watt light bulb moon I know you're never more than a secret away From the other side of the room

E

Everyone asks for something They just ask for such wildly differing amounts They ask me for some assurance And I said I kissed her on the cheek one time But I don't know if that counts I can't expect your sympathy While I sit here in shame of all the times When I know I stayed too long A vanity of conscience and beautiful confusion That no one knows until it's gone Tell me, does your blood run cold When you kiss her hair And do you wonder who you were before you met her? ('Cause I do) A wise man once told me You've got to be as good as everyone else Before you can be better I want to look you in the eye and just be glad Of all the things I know I'll never miss But I'd rather forsake every friend I had Than live another day like this

D

I'm the drill man

G

A

D

Caught for the first time in my life

D

I drill holes in showers

G

A

'Cause I've got a minging wife

C

D

Em

I thought my sins would never be revealed

C

D

G

C

I thought my holes were well concealed

Am

I left the door wide open

F

To my masturbation chair

D

But I'm the drill man

G

D

I'm not going anywhere I'm the drill man You haven't seen the last of me 'Cause now I've tampered with your toilet door So I can watch you pee They set the jizz-squad on me but they let me go The found no DNA to connect to my chimpoko I left the door wide open To my masturbation chair But I'm the drill man I'm not going anywhere

F#

I'm the drill man

G

E

To me there's nothing very sacred

F#

When I walk past you

G

A

I'm thinking, "I've seen you naked!" I'm the drill man Now I'm sponsored by B&Q From my filthy chamber I could have been watching you I get up early every morning And creep to your corridor without warning I left the door wide open To my masturbation chair But I'm the drill man I'm not going anywhere I'm the drill man I really hate the end of the year The cubicles stand empty When the students disappear But I'm gonna go on watching you forever Do you want to know my real name? It's a secret! I left the door wide open To my masturbation chair But I'm the drill man I'm not going anywhere

G

Bm

You might think that we're prisoners

C

G

But the locks are just for show

G

Bm

And the jailers carry token keys

C

Am

But they don't seem to know

D

Em

And every now and then

D

Em

Someone else disappears

C

G

And all the things you meant to say

D

Become your only souvenirs I started counting the days today Till the sky comes falling down I always wanted to be with you when it falls But when the age of change is over We're all fixed in time If this how it's all going to be Then you're no friend of mine I know there's a room that you sleep in I know there are streets that you walk I bet there are prayers that you say every day Take up thy telephone and talk! I curse this crazy rhythm Of the drum I was born to beat I curse our crazy distance And all the roads that never meet My eyes have got to look somewhere But I won't turn away Of course I'll be there in your hour of need If you tell me what to say I watched you pack and leave today You lingered by the gate You told me I'd been too lucky for too long And when you walked towards me It was me approaching you Of course I'll be there in your hour of need If you tell me what to do The god of futility forsakes me The fire on him altar grows dim And all the thoughts that lingered on my lips for so long Are finally directed at him So I'll race you through the crossfire If you point the way to go Just make sure all your clothes are red So the blood doesn't show And when the moment is finally upon us It will feel just like falling asleep So stay by my side until I decide Which promises to keep

D

G

To live three times through the mania

D

G

And freeze you in the instant you take flight

Bm

Am

G

C

To fall in love with the dancing girl

Am

G

As she dances through the night I don't understand how you can look so good Though you stand so far away Morning begins when I see you face And the clock ticks till the end of the day The great big eyes of the evening sky Threaten only to go away And as lucky as I am to have known your name I don't feel all that lucky today For I lived three times through the mania And froze you in the instant you took flight I fell in love with the dancing girl As she danced through the night

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Em

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B

A

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Em

D

A

G

Bm

Em

The chains that tied you down, tied me down

Em

D

C

D

Your wings were clipped by your wings

G

Bm

C

D

Em

When our eyes met I saw things no one else knew Do you remember those days like I do? If you close your eyes can you still see the view? The shadows move so slowly now as they search for you You're so close to perfect that it scares me And when we're alone, it tears me apart It's that little piece of you that watches me that breaks my heart So meet me by the roar of the river And all that you saw, deliver to me And then fall away from here and set me free Set me free Set me free Set me free

A

D

Pretty baby, tell me

E

A

When my train's gonna come

A

C#m

Your eyes have made me blind

D

Your voice has struck me dumb

A

E

There's nothing much behind me

D

But the things I'm running from

C

A

I'm in love, but not for long I'll stay and keep you company Until that train arrives When I'm beside you, girl I'm the luckiest man alive You're the silken midnight river Into which I long to dive I'm in love, but I'll survive I'll carry all your burdens God knows you carried mine And hold on to them forever If you need that much time The only train I want to catch Is across your borderline I'm in love, but I'll be fine Now I've studied your face And I've spoken your name There isn't any need for me To speak or see again Every life I try and lead Just turns out the same I'm in love, but love's in vain

C

F

C

Each day I awake I invent you

C

F

/e

G

I piece you together from the dreams I've had

C

F

Em

F

And on rare days you are real

C

G

F

C

And in rare veils you are clad You resonate in the breath of indecision Choices made while the sunlight dimmed Before you blew away you floated past me And for that I thank the wind I declare you the last great beauty To bind me to the brink of bliss But at times when I dream of you beside me I forget how impossible it is So each day I awake I invent you I piece you together from the dreams I've had And on rare days you are real And in rare veils you are clad

Fm7

Eb6

Db

Fm

I wish you were seven hours away from me

Eb6/g

Fm

Db

Fm

I wouldn't shatter your midnight calm

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G

F#

F

E

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E

If you don't wake soon The day will break without you

A

E

And lost will be the wonder of the light

B

A

For only you can repair the broken morning

E

G

E

And gather up the spilt silver of night Let's walk Along streets built for holding hands And we can talk of all the money we will spend And you can sing your songs of open roads And let me in to the quiet gardens you tend

C

D

G

Yours is the life I long to see

C

D

E

Yours is the mouth I long to kiss

C

D

G

So let's rest awhile and you rest your smile upon me

C

G

F

And all your dreams

C

G

F

All your dreams

E

Can drink of this And then home Drinking water but thinking wine Laughing through the greatest scene of all And in your arms in front of the fire Tomorrow seems a long, long distance to fall Oh, but I'm a fool I see silver everywhere And, fool that I am, I longed for you for too long But I'm a fool with nothing nothing to repent After all, I only ever sin in song This is the life I long to see Your are the lips I never want to miss So let's rest together and you can rest forever upon me And all your dreams All our dreams Can drink of this Drink of spilt silver Take of your silver And spill it in the dark

G

C

I've given up the sugar in my tea

D

/f#

G

Now every sip I take's a disappointment

G

D

It's like there's something missing deep within me

D

/f#

G

A fly in the most effective ointment

C

Bm

For as long as I can remember

G

G7

C

C7

It's been as good as it was ever gonna be

G

But now I've given up the sugar

C

Given up the sugar

D

/f#

G

Given up the sugar in my tea With every cup I drink I see the shadow Of the sweetness of yesterday And it's impossible to think that maybe I never really needed it anyway And I hope you understand How hard it is to set myself free Now I've given up the sugar Given up the sugar Given up the sugar in my tea

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/b

C

G

Well, I tried artificial sweeteners

C

G

But they don't deserve the name

C

D

So I call out in my weakness

Em

/d

C

D

D7

Life will never taste the same, oh no Maybe I only ever did it out of habit It was something that had always just been there And the thought of a bitter life without it Is very nearly more than I can bear And they say it might do me some good But no good can I see Now I've given up the sugar Given up the sugar You were the sugar in my tea

A(v)

F#m

I haven't seen you for months

A(v)

C#m

Is everything going to plan?

D(v)

F#m

Can you fly as high as you long to fly

B(ii)

E

E7

In the knowledge you can always land? I'm just writing to tell you That the light in your room shines on But no light can fall upon you now I've known since you've been gone

D

A

That you'll outlive me

D

A

You'll outlive me

D

E

You'll outlive me, precious thought

A

Like I outlived you Once I loved you out of proportion I loved you out of control Now I love you out of context And it hollows out my soul And while you just float right by me On thoughts you never bothered to check You might as well crucify me On that cross around your neck And then outlive me I'll hang around while you outlive me You'll outlive me, beautiful idea Like I outlived you

D

E

They weighed me in the balance

D

E

And found me wanting you

A

But turning side-by-side

C#m

Into face-to-face

D

A

E

Is a tricky thing to do Now everything's building up Like a quiet walk down the road And stars maintain their silence In the instant they explode So I'll miss you till I'm numb Then it won't matter like before But if you knew how much time I spent thinking of you You might think of me a little bit more While you outlive me I'll hang around while you outlive me You'll outlive me, beautiful friend Like I outlived you Oh, oh, oh, oh

G

C

God threw all his caution to that western wind

G

D

The arrow caught the wind and it flew

G

F

And I just lounge around writing songs like these

G

D

C

And wondering what to do

G

D

C

Tell me what should I do? 'Cause there's no comfort in the thought That this is as good as it gets And I've no patience with those who say "It's only cause and effect" It can't be just cause and effect! But I've got to affect something, I promise myself As I drain this half-empty cup And I thought it over for months on end And I still fucked it up Somehow I still fucked it up And they line us up in order now But they muddle us around Till it all feels nine times worse And I never believed in voodoo before But this sure feels like a curse But must be what it like to be cursed But come on, little heart You've got no right to break All your reasons are too lame to mention And I can't really call you a broken heart But you could do with a little attention We could all do with a little attention God threw all his caution to that western wind The arrow caught the wind and it flew And I know there are other things I could be wishing for While I waste my time wishing for you I still waste all my time on you Now I've wasted another song on you On you

JPF : Durham

Keys To The Church

Blinded By Fire

A Terrible Thing

Outside Myself

Without Trace

Throw It Back

Melancholy Eyes

My Inspiration

Wrong Side Of The Sky

So Full

Another Day Like This

Drill Man

Prisoners

The Dancing Girl

The Roar Of The River

Your Train Blues

I Invent You

Seven Hours

Spilt Silver

The Sugar In My Tea

Outlive Me

Wasting My Time